I Have Game. Do You?

The past week saw me spending nights (as usual my 12mn to 9am shit, este, shift pala) in the office and then straight to the hospital for my 'bantay' duty while my mom was in the ICU. We rushed her to the hospital Sunday at 1am because she was scared something was wrong with her because she has had trouble sleeping for the past few days. By Sunday 9am, she was transferred to the ICU because of complications brought about by her diabetic condition. Sobrang kinabahan kami ng sister ko. Usually, in situations such as this, my brother would be in his take-charge mode. But since my kuya and his wife were in Europe, my atsi and I had to pull through for my mom. Good thing the hospital bills will be charged to my Maxicare card since my mom is my dependent and then the hospital room we are using to accommodate visitors (and ourselves) will be paid for by my Tito Pablo. He didn't want us staying in the waiting area. Bless you, Tito Pabs. The cardiologist said she suffered a mild hea...

To my everdearest friend to whom i've grown fonder each day, my sister and soulmate... Sometimes, we ask questions when there are no answers... When things go wrong, we look at pain as a reason to stop living... Stop thinking. Listen to your heart. Listen to the voice inside there telling you not to be afraid. Face it. Speak your heart and mind. Then move on.. You will never grow if you will hide in the shadows. There is always a reason for everything. We may never find the answers but we should not stop looking. I have been there. Learned from it. I'm not saying i will not make the same mistakes.. in fact i have.. but i am still learning.. and treating each day as a new day. Keep hoping. Keep believing. If you feel like crying. I will cry with you. Jump and i will be there to catch you. Keep believing. Dreams come true.

It's over. You have left and I am somber...yet I am thankful. Somber because you did not get to feel and experience my love and my passion, the taste of my kisses and the warmth of my touch. You passed up the opportunity to have my devotion and my loyalty. Thankful because now I can heal in peace. I genuinely cared for you and when you left, nights were spent thinking if you were thinking of me, of what had gone wrong. Days had me dazed and confused. Laughing and smiling began to be a chore rather than a reflex action. I ached for you. You nearly had me and all you had to do was to extend your hand but a little further. At one point I felt the need to confront you and the need to hear the truth from you. I wanted closure and I wanted it so bad that the pang of hurt in my chest, sometimes, would make me gasp. There were so many questions which only you can answer. I had faltered in my quest. I was in pain. I was in tears. But I was never broken. My heart...somewhat, but my charac...

Posted more pics in my Multiply account. Take a lookie-lookie. Ack. I'm sooo full right now since Kerry and Grace had 2 Yellow Cab pizzas delivered to the office as 'pakain,' NY's Finest and Four Seasons. Both 18 inches. Yikes. Sarap. Anyway, I know I haven't updated for the longest time but I've been limiting my time on the world wide web for the past couple of days. First off, the remote connection I use to browse slows down my PC so I don't browse anymore (Naks! Oi, it's true. I swear). Second, I have been given more quota for evaluations: 18 a day!!! During the first few days of committing to the quota, I wouldn't take my hour-long lunch break but I'd just take yosi breaks in-between 3 or 4 calls A sandwich or bread from Starbucks would suffice, eaten in my workstation. And am now in the 12mn to 9am shift. The security guard shift as we call it. Not much of an adjustment, really. When I was in Sykes as part of the MSN 9 Beta team, 12mn to 9a...