I Have Game. Do You?

I am sitting in front of my laptop. Yet I am not here. My mind is on overload. I haven't slept. And I can't eat, my appetite is gone. My heart aches every 5 minutes. And the tears continue to try to break free, threatening to fall anytime. I haven't been in this situation in a long while.

Just when I thought things were going my way life's curve balls caught me off-guard. I was rudely awakened from my fairy tale. I am so frightened by the possibility of the knight on his white horse galloping away from me. Lecheng YM yan.

I’m beginning to dread the weekends. Pathetic. I know. I don’t get excited when the weekend is near anymore. Thursday is beginning to become like a bad omen. And what’s even more pathetic is that I’d rather be in the office and occupy myself with the stress of my job than stay at home knowing I will never get the thing that I want anytime soon. I want to cry. I don’t want to feel this way. I don’t want to be this way.

I haven't had the time to update this in such a long time. I've been busy with work, with playing around with Facebook, updating Pepato with all the apps I can get my hands on (well, from my sister, that is), watching all those wonderful 2PM videos in YT. Whew. I just wanted to post that. *Oh, and the Pablo Neruda book of poems I've been wanting to buy is sold out. *sadness* *My HTML powers have dwindled the past year, so I'm thinking of updating my layout and background and fonts. *I just checked my bank account balance and it's so depressing. I need to save up for my trip to South Korea this September. I want to buy a few things for the 2PM boys. I am praying that Jay comes back from Seattle by that time. I think it's going to be a sad visit to the JYP office, with all the Hottests post-its on the walls. But if he's not, I'm bringing a ton of post-its and I might ask Pinoy Hottests to send me theirs so I can post it for them. *I got the SS501 dvd from...