Beyond Repair.

It's funny: I finally met a guy who exceeds all of my expectations and wants in a man. BUT he's not mine.

And I think he doesn't want to be.


It's funny.


And it's sick.


AT THE SAME FUCKING TIME.


Ugh.

Comments

aajao said…
o, bakit? is he taken?
4:18 PM, January 13, 2006
Anonymous said…
sweetie, dont do that to urself .. there are so many other guys more worthy of you than that twisted SOB.
7:22 PM, January 13, 2006
... beachfreak said…
@nonoy: I know he's single pero 'lam mo yun...

@chris: yeah, you're right about that - he's a twisted SOB.
10:05 PM, January 13, 2006
Anonymous said…
nonoy ka jan! haha, natawa ako dun sa tawag mo sa kin. oh well. sometimes, guys like to have hints that you like them. malay mo, kulang lang sa "tulak". haha!

oy teka, are you talking about the same old SOB of yours?
9:34 AM, January 14, 2006
b3Rn1cE said…
susmaria! nakakainis ang ganyang situation :D
10:39 AM, January 14, 2006
... beachfreak said…
@nonoy: Haha! Eh, yun yung nakalagay sa comment eh! :) Yup, same old SOB. *sigh* Pagnainis na nga ako, itutulak ko talaga siya. Grr.

@jababes: Susmaria talaga. Oh well. Hope you're doing well, ja.
3:29 PM, January 14, 2006
Anonymous said…
Well, sabi nga ng Chicago: love the one you're with. Kung mag-isa ka lang, eh di love yourself.
7:49 PM, January 14, 2006
... beachfreak said…
Hmm.. is that you my humble little prophet? Sabi ng Chicago yun?

But yes, mahal ko pa rin sarili ko. Leche na silang lahat.
8:25 PM, January 14, 2006
Carina said…
Shucks! that is so frustrating... btw, glad to see you posting again altho it's quite a short post :)
9:31 AM, January 15, 2006
... beachfreak said…
@car: frustrating and more. *sigh* *sigh* *sigh*

Yeah, I've been busy with, er, work. Hehe.
11:49 AM, January 15, 2006
Quentin said…
bah, work shmork. Sakit lang sa ulo yang mga lalakeng yan
2:31 AM, January 17, 2006
Quentin said…
oiiiiiii btw, new look! :}

abbreviation ba yung SOB? (son of bitch? parang kulang)
2:33 AM, January 17, 2006
... beachfreak said…
@quentino: Sabi ko sayo, busy ako with, er, work eh, kaya bago template. Still not finished, though.

And yes SOB. Keber na yung 'a'.

Hehe.
2:55 AM, January 17, 2006
Ciel said…
It happened to me too

My Blog
12:22 PM, January 17, 2006
... beachfreak said…
@michele: Di ko makita yung story, pero, hanap ko pa rin...
1:45 PM, January 17, 2006
Ciel said…
@Beachfreak I didn't write about it cuz it hurts to remember. I just wanted you to know that di ka nag-iisa.

One thing I learned that there is such a thing as girl power. Huwag kang papa-influence sa mga lalaki. Maraming isda sa dagat. Believe in yourself. Use your charms. Mga guys really get attracted to women who got "game" or "it."
5:02 AM, January 18, 2006
... beachfreak said…
@michele: Ah, that's why i can't find it.

It's funny what you said about having 'game', my blog title kasi is 'Do You Have Game?' Thank you for letting me know that I'm not alone.

I understand your point. People have told me that I appear to be this un-fussed, un-fazed woman; has this great personality, 'someone who knows to do her thing'. I am all that. But there are times in your life that you need reminding that there are finer and nobler things in life.

That's what I've been trying to do.

=)
9:39 AM, January 18, 2006
Quentin said…
i'm sure power is there regardless of gender.

i tend to prefer women with strong personalities though. yung tipong kaya akong awayin >:D (at suyuin ko pagkatapos hee hee)
2:15 AM, January 19, 2006
... beachfreak said…
If I were a man, I'd want me. Bwahaha!

I can hear the hirits coming now...

Ah, quentino, are we talking about power-tripping here?

Hehe.
11:55 AM, January 19, 2006
Anonymous said…
hey ate sofia! nice new template! :)

it's his lost, sister. XD
3:17 PM, January 19, 2006
Anonymous said…
*loss.
3:17 PM, January 19, 2006
... beachfreak said…
@mitch Yeah, yan din ang pilit kong ipinapasok sa utak ko. *sigh*

Maganda ba yung Lemony Thicket book?
9:15 PM, January 19, 2006
Quentin said…
If I were a man, I'd want me. Bwahaha!

>> but ofcourse, it starts with self-love <3 tee hee

oh not sure about that power-trippin. Just saying no one should be made an ass of themselves. Ever.
11:52 PM, January 19, 2006
... beachfreak said…
@quentino: I agree.

Yun lang. Wala na akong masabi eh.

Haha.
10:40 AM, January 20, 2006
eventuallypretty said…
be brave. be very brave. :)

e di kung ayaw wag. hmp.

pero sayang. wahahahaha...

pinapatawa lang kita twinnie.
1:03 PM, January 20, 2006
... beachfreak said…
@prettypatty: hey, how've you been? Happy happy. =)

Hehe.

Basta I'll text you when, er, whatever happens.


*toinks self*
2:08 PM, January 20, 2006
Anne said…
rosey rosey, *sigh millionth time*

leche reminds me of the situation i am in hehehe the perfect guy is so near yet so far arghh!!!
5:53 PM, January 25, 2006
... beachfreak said…
@anne: I cry myself to sleep... but I try to smile in the morning...
12:35 AM, January 26, 2006
Anne said…
*hugs*

awww u like him a lot.
9:06 AM, January 26, 2006
... beachfreak said…
@Anne:

*blushes* Yes, I do. A whole lot.

*more blushing*
11:02 AM, January 26, 2006
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