Desperately Wanting.

Haaaaaaa! I found his blog. Pakshet. Thanks, Kerry. It's actually devoid of any pictures, design or tools, just entries.

Actually the surprise was that he has one, but now that I've thought of it, why not? I like the way he writes. And it's wonderful that he relates so much about himself without ever really revealing anything.

Talk about intellectually-stimulating. *grrrrrrrrrowl*

Fuck. I've been owned.

My friends know that I've this thing for cute men with glasses. Well, not really geeky but men who actually look and are smart. Not just some wannabe geek.

He was this guy in the office that I've been eyeing: tall, nice fair skin, broad shoulders, wavy hair, beautiful eyes with long lashes behind the glasses. Never noticed him before until that one time in March in the pantry when I was having merienda with Lucio and he came in for a drink. I think Lucio noticed that I was looking too hard at the guy that he called him by his first name and made small talk.

I thought to myself, 'Shit. Yari.'

By the time we were back in our work stations, Louie said that he'd set me up with the guy. Uh, yeah. So ever since that time when the guy would walk past the QA station Louie would call him: 'Hey, ----. You've met Rose, right? Rose! Rose!?' I'd never rise from my chair and risk being seen with this deep red flush on my cheeks as if I've downed too many rhum cokes. A few times, I'd see him in the yosihan, but I'd be too shy to say hi, so I'd just smile (sometimes to myself, hehe) and keep my distance. One time I was alone in the 14th floor, I was going through our lateral when I saw him with his teammates, and with a new haircut. Smiled at each other as he passed me by. Hella thought I was gonna faint.

Hayup ka talaga, Louie. Animal.

Kerry and Fats joined the bandwagon. We were in the batcave when they called his office to request something. Bigla ko na lang narinig, 'Uy ----, sabi ni Rose 'Hi.'

I was like, 'The hell?!' Kerry (mahal kita pero hinayupak ka talaga, haha) couldn't stop laughing. He was laughing, too. Then he said, 'Pakisabi 'Hi' rin sa kanya.'

Hokay. *dazed mode: ON*

Ampotah. Kaya ayokong kinikilig ako eh. Ack.

For the first time in my life, I'm diffident. Yikes. What is happening to me? I've always been aggressive but I'm apprehensive at the moment.

Putcha, maybe Raffy is right: I am losing my touch. Haha.

Gademit, Rose. Umayos ka.

And hell no! I won't put his link here lest I be discovered and... and... hmm... yun nga... discovered.

Grr. Anoooooobaaaaaaaaaa?!