I'm a very sensible person. I am amiable. Geez, sometimes I'm too nice for my own good . If you treat me with the respect and good nature I deserve I will extend the same courtesy to you. But treat me unwisely, I may-- hell--I will give you a piece of my mind, a short but big piece of my obscene and crazy mind. I've been called a bitch several times. I don't mind. It's true. You don't call me or ask your friends to call me on my cell phone, call me a bitch, and then hang up. You don't ask your male friends to call me at an ungodly hour to roughly ask me for sex. You don't call my home and tell the people I love I'm a no-good woman. Hell no. You do not drag my family in this mess you created. You say you read through my blogs and one of these days you'll post my entries in yours, and on your friends’ blogs, to expose my so-called ‘secrets’. Why not do it now? And do I really merit such recognition from someone of your stature and level? Yo...
It's funny: I finally met a guy who exceeds all of my expectations and wants in a man. BUT he's not mine. And I think he doesn't want to be. It's funny. And it's sick. AT THE SAME FUCKING TIME. Ugh.
It's over. You have left and I am somber...yet I am thankful. Somber because you did not get to feel and experience my love and my passion, the taste of my kisses and the warmth of my touch. You passed up the opportunity to have my devotion and my loyalty. Thankful because now I can heal in peace. I genuinely cared for you and when you left, nights were spent thinking if you were thinking of me, of what had gone wrong. Days had me dazed and confused. Laughing and smiling began to be a chore rather than a reflex action. I ached for you. You nearly had me and all you had to do was to extend your hand but a little further. At one point I felt the need to confront you and the need to hear the truth from you. I wanted closure and I wanted it so bad that the pang of hurt in my chest, sometimes, would make me gasp. There were so many questions which only you can answer. I had faltered in my quest. I was in pain. I was in tears. But I was never broken. My heart...somewhat, but my charac...
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