Monday, May 08, 2006

Of Shots and Lost Causes. Part II.

***click here for Part I.

J: You drunk na? (takes a swig of his beer then adjusts his Ray-Bans)

Soon-to-be. (clinks my vodka ice bottle with his sweaty beer can) Why?

J: Oh nothing. (stares at me then sneers) So... you said good-bye...

Me: *groans* I did. Do we have to talk about it?

J: Bakit ayaw mong pag-usapan? (no response from me as I finish off the vodka ice) Sige, pagtawanan na lang natin.


Me: Gago ka talaga. (silence) Sometimes, naiisip ko sana hindi ko na lang ginawa. But most of the time, all I can think about is how free I feel. No burden, no hidden agenda. No more waiting for him to see my real worth. No more waiting for the texts which I know will never be sent. (grabs another vodka ice from the cooler) And, alam mo, tama yung sinabi niya: He's God's gift to women... blind ones. I hate to admit it, I am blind, J. Blind as a fucking bat. (leans back on the recliner and takes a deep breath) Yep, I'm totally jaded now.

J: (sits up and takes off his sunglasses) Tanga. He's the lost cause. Not you. Tandaan mo yun. You tried to change things between the two of you pero siya yung may ayaw. That doesn't make you less of a woman than you really are. Saying good-bye to him just proves you are the woman because you know you deserve something more and you deserve more from him. (silence) Oi, kahit naka-shades ka alam kong naiiyak ka na. (looks away for a moment then turns to me) I know your pain. Pero tandaan mo, once you find the right one you'll realize why it never worked with anyone else.


And yes, I'm still in beach mode.


nonoy said...

"Pero tandaan mo, once you find the right one, you'll realize why it never worked with anyone else."
hey. J is a good adviser. i could have said the same.

cheer up, beach girl! ;)

... beachfreak said...

@a-jaw: You know what, when he said that line, I actually remembered you kasi I think you texted me something similar. Ikaw nga ba yun? Haha.

And yes, J is good at giving advices and memorable quotes when we have our drinking and bonding sessions. =)

BernicE said...

tama... iinom mo na lang yan. welcome home rosie!!

... beachfreak said...

@miss bernice: Hehe. Nasobrahan na ata ako sa alcohol. I'm detoxifying for 5 days then inom uli sa Sabado. hahaha! thanks!

aajao said...

magkofi muna tayo. alternative naman sa alcohol ;)

Quentin said...

i make memorable stains during drinking and bonding sessions ...

... beachfreak said...

@a-jaw: Haha! Oo nga 'no, you still owe me coffee ;) I'll text you pag nasa Libis ako one of these days =)

@quentino: Er, stains. I don't know why, but that thought seems to be really nasty to me.


AJ said...



HAHAHA,, yun lang ang nasabi ko..

... beachfreak said...

@aj: Hehe. Tangina talaga.

Oh well. You can't win them all.

eventuallypretty said...

twinnie: dear quents pukes all over the place.

minsan pa nga he drools. wahaha... :)

long time no post ako dito. forget mo na yun. kinig ka lang kay J. he's right ya know :)

... beachfreak said...

@twinnie: I know.

And get this I like someone in the office BUT may gf na naman. Peste.


... beachfreak said...


@twinnie: about quentino's puking --- Eeeww. Hehehe.