Monday, June 27, 2005

And then there were only 2.

We were called the Tres Kapitanas. We were bonded for life by our one true passion: dance. The 3 of us became captains of the CSB Pep Squad consecutively: Mayette came after me, and then Tricia. I was able to handle them both during my captain and trainor days. Our beliefs and ethics similar; execution always perfect, movements upbeat and self-assured.

Then, 12 hours ago, Tricia, one of the truest friends I have, left for the US of A. For good. No more 'Lean Back' groove partner. I'll miss your kaputian.

Sad, really.

Dazed, Mayette and I spent the rest of the afternoon and early night in Megamall and Podium.

I'm never good at goodbyes.

Be safe, Tricia.

Just do the rock-a-way.

Saturday, June 25, 2005

My apologies...

just got home an hour ago from a night-out...finished template in under an sleepy...and I still have to go to work later at 2pm...ang saya.

will fix font colors of the entries later on....


Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Hell yes.

Never knew my afternoons could get this hotter.

And it's not even a weekend. But hell yes.

Shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit. *deep breath*

I just love roller coaster rides.

After the ride, can someone hand me a barf bag?

Y'know, just in case...

Monday, June 20, 2005

Daddy. Part II.

Daddy! Happy Father's Day!

Brought you flowers, and also the candles that you like, those scented ones that really smell good when burning.

So, how's heaven? Your compadres keeping you company? Tong-its game every night, eh? Does the Johnny Walker taste better there? (Gee, I hope so...)


There never was a day that I didn't think of you, that I didn't miss you, that I did not wish you were still alive.

I know you always check on me each and every night, making sure that my door is locked. I know because I hear the wooden planks outside my door creak and I'd hear the doorknob crank a little. It makes me sleep better knowing you were just outside my bedroom door.

Before your passing, on weekend nights (and weekday nights as well) those wooden planks that creak, I avoid stepping on them when I'd sneak out for a gimmick with clothes in my arms and my heels stashed in the kitchen downstairs. For the longest time, I didn't think you knew. Until mama told me. You'd make sure I was already downstairs and then you'd radio the tanods to see if I was going to be fetched or if I was going to 'bring' a car, and one time, had a patrol car follow me. Mang Boy said you guffawed when you found out I had to 'push' the car out of the garage one night and away from the house before I climbed in and drove oh-so-slowly away -- with no drivers license. You said to him daw, 'Yang bunso ko talaga, ang lakas ng loob. Parang lalaki yung ugali. Ugali ko.' After that conversation you hired him to be my full-time driver/bantay (-cum-bodyguard-cum-kakuntsaba). Memories such as these will forever make me smile and remember.

Hat_tr1ck, from PEx, and I have the same fear: that one day I'd forget what I know of you. But I won't let that happen. I swear.

When I'm alone at home, I slide open the glass doors of your closet and I bury my face in your polos and barongs. I am comforted by the smell of your perfume. I am calmed by the thought that somehow you are still with me.

You are still, and, you will always be my hero.

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

Music Baton.

I don't really like doing these things but since it was
aajao, I'd make an exception.

Total volume of music files in my computer:
1980 songs, 9.7 days, 10.39 GB. Haha. I'm a music junkie, what more can I say?

Last CD I bought:
Latest CDs I bought were:
Drip's Far Side of the World
Thievery Corporation's The Cosmic Game
Sneaker Pimps' Bloodsport
Gary V's Soul Full
Apo's Ten Years Together and Feet On The ground albums

Song Playing Right Now:
Roam by The B-52's. Reminds me of my high school days.

Five songs I listen to a lot, or that mean a lot to me:
Hmm. According to iTunes the 5 most played songs in my library are:

1> Breathe by Télépopmusik
Reminds me of this 'one-night-turning-into-day' of absolute bliss. Was watching the sun rise in Boracay in front of Willy's with my cousins and friends, drinking strawberry champagne to end our 7-day stay on the island. Was not sober yet wasn't drunk enough. Perfect.

We Need A Resolution by Aaliyah
I love the video of this song. And the song itself tells me that things need to 'resolved.' As it says,
"Speak your heart, don't bite your tongue.
Don't get it twisted. Don't misuse it....
Am I supposed to change? Are you supposed to change?
Who should be hurt? Who should be blamed?
Who should be hurt? Who should be ashamed?
Who should be hurt? And will we remain?
We need a resolution. We have so much confusion."

Don't Know Why by Norah Jones

"When I saw the break of day... I wished that I could fly away
Instead of kneeling in the sand... catching teardrops in my hand
My heart is drenched in wine... you'll be on my mind
Out across the endless sea... I would die in ecstacy
But I'll be a bag of bones...driving down the road alone... "

Nuff said.

No Ordinary Morning by Chicane
This was December's song of the month
"You could give a million reasons change the world and change the tides
Could not give me the secrets of your heart and of your mind
In the darkness that surrounds me now there is no peace of mind
Your careless words undo me leave the thought of us behind..."

A Woman's Worth by Alicia Keys

"She walks the mile, makes you smile, all the while being true
Dont take for granted the passion she has for you
You will lose if you choose to refuse to put her first
She will if she can find a man who knows her worth

'Cause a real man knows a real woman when he sees her
And a real woman knows a real man ain't afraid to please her
A real woman knows a real man always comes first
A real man just can't deny a woman's worth."

San ka pa?! Tsk.

Five people I'm passing this to: Kerry, Ivy, jean_grey, daesdemona, barenaked aka jill.

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

Wednesday blues.

*****Will not delete this post. This will be a reminder of how stupid and deranged I was for the past couple of months. Hehe.

It was just an ordinary day for me, like every shift for the past month. I was fine.

Until we saw each other today.

It was so natural for you. Like nothing ever happened. Like we were just old friends that lost contact over the years...

It was sad because you never uttered my name. It was've forgotten it.

I'm sorry, I didn't even stop when you called out to me. I just smiled at you and I walked away. I didn't want to stop and then fall all over again...

But you have no idea how much I missed you;

of how much I wanted to touch your face and your lips;

of how much I wanted to hear you say my name.

You have no idea...
You'll never know.

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

Plain and True.

Enlightening discussions sometimes happen with the most unlikely people.

You hear the purest truth, the barest opinion, the harshest advice. When you hear everything in its plain-est and truest form, that's when everything sinks in and then you begin to understand... and then you learn to accept.

Oh, the simplicity of it all.

She may have never been in a relationship but her words cut deep like a knife with a jagged edge.

Nothing like wisdom from the mouth of a virgin. Haha.

Saturday, June 04, 2005

Of Straight Shifts and Teddies Part II

Straight shift: 3pm to 12mn then 12mn to 9am.

Yes, I was on straight shift again. Hay. Had to offset my absence Thursday night. Thank you, Valium, for the wonderful and dreamless sleep. Hehe.

Did this entry at 6:43 am, Saturday. Was in the office. Actually, was on petix mode because I completed my quota, and then some more, around 2 hours before my shift ends, so I used 'JM' to blog while waiting for log-out time.

Sheesh. I think I won't be eating pizza for the next couplaweeks. Was too full. Ugh. I treated my officemates to 2 18" Yellow Cab pizzas for the reason that I got promoted to QAA3! Yipeee! Hehe. It was effective March 15 but was only announced and the memo forwarded to me Wednesday.

Whew. Not bad na rin since March was just my 8th month on the job.

Aiah and Krissy, they played a nasty trick on me that Wednesday night (Aiah even posted it on her blog, btw). When I got to my station, I started opening my templates for rating when Krissy asked me if I've checked my email, I said "Not yet. Why?" Aiah then joined the fray and said I should check it ASAP and she was sort of frowning....and you know that look when something's really wrong? She was doing that (curse you! ahaha!) I wasn't really feeling well that night because of the flu (hence the absence Thursday night) and I felt really bogged down by the thought of something negative. So anyway, paranoid me checks email and then I saw the Promotions email with my name on it!

The first thing that escaped my lips ----"Waaaaaaaah! Waaaaaah!' I swear. I was just so surprised na walang matinong lumabas sa bibig ko. Everybody just started laughing and I couldn't help but hug Krissy and everyone else!

It was just unexpected. My stats tagged me as a high-flyer for every past quarter but the promotion was never discussed with me, so again, sweet surprise.

Haay. And so the mystery of the salary amount thingie on my last entry has been solved. Note to meself: Read -not just check- what's in your payslip. I just checked basic salary for 5/15 was higher than the previous payslip...if I just took note of that I would've had an inkling of the promotion....but then, at this point, I don't really care!

Reflection: For the first time in 2 months, I felt genuinely happy. No shit. Well, yes, it was short-lived to be very honest, but a wonderful feeling, nonetheless.

"Waaaaaaaah! Waaaaaah!' Ack. What an awful reaction. Tsk.

But as Aiah said - the look on my face was priceless.

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

Of Pink Pussycats and Dog Wisdom.

It was Tuesday. GA. Did nothing for half the shift. Pumasok lang kami sa office para mag-browse, kumain, mag-browse ulit, at uminom ng alak. Hell, yeah. Uploaded the pics in Multiply.

I was able to try out this drink in ICE Greenbelt: Pink Pussycat. Yuuuuuum. Strawberry vodka, with strawberry bits, and more vodka. If we stayed long enough I could've downed 5 of these sa sarap.

Pakshet. I want more.

And the music. Argh. Parang sinusundan talaga ako. In Ice, they played the 2 songs I never wanted to hear again in my entire life...when we went to Temple pinatugtog din sila. Took all of my self-control to keep it together. The fuck.

One good thing about Tuesday, aside from the drunken stupor... I checked my salary and nagulat ako sa amount. I had to ask Janey to check the amount just so I'm sure I'm seeing things right. Wow....can I jump for joy now?!

Anyway, I was re-reading Chicken Soup for the Pet Lover's Soul and I came across this entry. Author Unknown eh so I can't acknowledge him/her. Just wanted to share it.

And indeed, we can learn a thing or two from those great creatures...

Things we can learn from a dog:

1. Never pass up the opportunity to go for a joy ride.
2. Allow the experience of fresh air and the wind in your face to be pure ecstasy.
3. When loved ones come home, always run to greet then.
4. When it's in your great interest, always practice obedience.
5. Let others know when they've invaded your territory.
6. Take naps and always stretch before rising
7. Run, romp and play daily.
8. Eat with gusto and enthusiasm.
9. Be loyal.
10. Never pretend to be something you're not.
11. If what you want lies buried, dig until you find it.
12. When someone is having a bad day, be silent, sit close by and nuzzle them gently.
13. Delight in the simple joy of a long walk.
14. Thrive on attention and let people touch you.
15. Avoid biting when a simple growl will do.
16. On hot days drink lots of water and lie under a shady tree.
17. When you are happy, dance around and wag your entire body.
18. No matter how often you are criticized, don’t buy into the guilt thing and pout. Run right back and make friends.

***Forgive me. I'm babbling. Alcohol does that to you. And I'm missing someone so baaaaad right now it hurts. Tangina.

No. Grr.

O siya. Will leave you with this really cool dancing banana...hahaha! Aliw!