Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Safely Home.

On February 24, 2009 my nephew's schoolmate and former classmate Amiel Alcantara died in a tragic car accident. During his wake, they gave out Thank You bookmarks with his picture and a short prayer from St. Therese of the Child Jesus. At the back was a poem - Safely Home. When I first read the poem I had to go to the bathroom because I had to cry so much. I kept thinking of my mom. I kept the bookmark with me because I realized how I love the poem and its meaning - for me.

I'd like to share it now. This is for everyone who has lost someone in their life. Take comfort in these verses.


I am safely home in Heaven, dear ones;
Oh, so happy and so bright!
There is perfect joy and beauty
In this everlasting light.

All the pain and grief is over,
Every restless tossing passed;
I am now at peace forever
Safely home in Heaven at last.

Did you wonder why I so calmly
Trod the valley of the shade?
Oh! But Jesus' love illimined
Every dark and fearful glade.

And He came himself to meet me
In that way so hard to tread;
And with Jesus' arm to lean on,
Could I have one doubt or dread?

Then you must not grieve so sorely,
For I love you dearly still
Try to look beyond earth's shadows
Pray to trust our Father's Will.

There is work still waiting for you
So you must not idly stand
Do it now, while life remaineth --
You shall rest in Jesus' land.

When that work is all completed,
He will call you Home
Oh, the rapture of that meeting
Oh, the joy to see you come!

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Baguio weekend.

Blogging from an internet cafe just outside of the Ina Mansion Hotel in Baguio. Still downloading SS501 videos as I type. Facebooked for a while but didn't really linger - just checked my messages.

Been here since Friday 11am. Left Manila at 5:00am. Once we were settled in my 2 nephews played their PS2 while I took a nap. we had dinner in Mamawell's Korean Restaurant and then went to SM to get groceries for our breakfast for the duration of our stay. They also wanted play online that's why we went here too last night.

Earlier we went to Camp John Hay to have lunch and browse through the merchandise in the Mile Hi center. Took lots of pictures - well, my nephews took a lot of pictures. Hehe. We also went to the Teacher's Camp Museum and had lots of pics there too. We then went back to SM to get my brother's jeans which he had fixed. While waiting for them my sister and I went to Surplus Shop and we were able to buy a few shirts and I was able to get a black coat - not as nice as the one I wanted to get but it'll keep me warm and it will go well with jeans and with business attire.

The kids went to Quantum and then after an hour we went back to Camp JH for dinner with Tito Pablo and his family (Tito Pablo is the younger brother of my mom) at Dencio's.

It has been jampacked. Haha. If it were up to me I'd rather stay in the room - but I'd miss hanging out with my pamangkins too much :p

That's all for now. Manuod pa ko ng videos... the wholesome kind =)

Monday, May 18, 2009

Thank you, Randy Pausch.

I am truly sad. I didn't know that Randy Pausch has died! I had to check several articles to check if it was true - and it was. I just can't believe it. I mean, how can I not know about this?! And then I remembered the date of his death - July 25, 2008; just 3 days after my mom died.

Have you watched his Last Lecture? Do so. You're probably going to hear stuff you've heard before, I have. But he's charimastic enough you'll want to do what he has shared. I'm definitely trying. It's hard, but I'm trying my best.

A few points from his lecture I'd like to share (in no paticular order) -

1. When we make a mistake, we say sorry. But what we forget to do is rather important - how you can make things right. It shows your sincerity.
2. Experience is what you get when you don't get what you want.
3. Material things are just material things. When he got a new car he picked up his sister's kids for a trip. His sister then lectured the kids that they should not soil the new car. Behind her back and in full view of her kids - he poured soda into the seat. This was to show that he doesn't care if they get the car dirty - it's just a car. By the end of the trip, his nephew got sick and had to barf in the car. After he told the story he said he didn't really care if his nephew barfed, but what he cared about was his nephew not feeling bad about dirtying his car because he was sick.
4. Obstacles or Brick walls are there for a reason - it let's you realize how much you want to achieve something. They are there to test your dedication.
5. If someone doesn't impress you, you just have to give them enough time.
6. Have fun. Everyday.

After watching his 10-minute (i think) lecture in Oprah, I went to YouTube and watch the whole 70-minute lecture. I loved it.

*I'd like to thank you, Mr Pausch, for teaching me again. =)

Saturday, May 16, 2009

SS501 U R Man. *Ahlavem!*

This SS501 song was recorded when 2 of its members were busy with other endeavors - Kim Hyun Joong was doing Boys Before Flowers and then Park Jung Min was in a play (Grease). The 3 remaining members still recorded a song and this was it. I was going through YouTube looking at their videos and it was always the 3 members (Heo Young Saeng, Kim Hyung Joon, Kim Kyu Jong - hey, I'm getting better at this! :P) performing the song. NOW - I found a performance where ALL 5 of them were dancing, (but not singing).

KHJ is hot in this video. And the way he dances - ugh - my heart is just beating faster! I just found myself looking for him in every shot. He carries his clothes well - mejo mukha siyang gigolo dito but I don't care - he's still so absofuckinglutely sexy. *sigh*

I love how they dance - they dance as hard as the back-up dancers - no slacking at all!

This is it. It is official. Mahal ko na siya.

I got this here. All credit goes to hl821.

Friday, May 15, 2009


I'm crazy over SS501.

There, I said it. Haha! *sigh* Mga peste 'tong mga boys na 'to. My high-school-girly self is emerging - again. I'm not really fond of Korean dramas except for Princess Hours. Then I had the chance to watch an episode of Boys Before Flowers in YouTube - and I was hooked. :) Crush ko si Kim Hyun Joong *kilig* and so I did my research and found out he's part of a Korean boy group.
How adorable. Shiyet.

Hindi lang ako marunong mag-Korean. Leche.

Sunday, May 10, 2009


A week has passed.

I still hurt from the experience. It still brings tears to my eyes when I think of the circumstance which made me leave. I miss my team, my leader, sitting in Row 4 and making Wi asar :p

My team also gave me a card. And I read the card while I was having my nails done. I almost cried.

I miss my team. I miss my friends. I miss the people I have worked with for almost 5 years.


Tuesday, May 05, 2009

Clean Up day.

So I went to the Scholastic Book Fiesta Sale yesterday at around 4pm. And I was disappointed because most of the books I wanted were not available. last time I was there I got HP books, Hardy Boys and Totally Spies, 39 clues too. I was looking forward to purchasing more HP books (boxed sets) and Narnia books and Inkheart but wala na nga daw. Oh, sadness. Hehe.

Went home after 30 minutes of just going around the place and passed by Pioneer Centre to buy my Cranberry juice and parmesan for the pasta I'll cook today.

Our house is a mess because of the installation on the laminated floor boards. I tried to clean as much as I can but I really can't do anything unless everything is finished. My sister and I thought of sorting everything into boxes - for selling, for giving away, for throwing out.

I was able to go through my mom's elephant figurines and they were extensive. Maybe 60-70 pieces my mom collected and received over the years. Our kasambahay, Ate Judith, packed them in the plastic container I bought a few weeks ago and in a basket that used to carry my dirty clothes. I also removed pictures from the miniature picture frames my mom placed all over the house. I was thinking of making a collage using the pics and then just getting nice frames for solo but 'informal' picture we can place alongside the bigger frames in the hall. I also am crushing on one of the cabinets we had in the family hall, and make it into a bookshelf for my room. I feel so bad for my books which are now contained in paper bags and some of the books stashed in the cabinet where I used to keep my shoes. Kawawa naman sila.

My study table is still in disarray. Ugh.

So many things to do.

And I have to get my nails done.


Monday, May 04, 2009


Before i went to sleep last night, I told myself I'd update this space as much as I can... since i have all the time now. Haha.

SO... lemme see.. Thursday, April 30 was my last official day at work. Passed my resignation the night before. The day reminded me why I hate good-byes so much. My team has taught me so much in the past 4 months. And I hope I was able to teach them a thing or two. It's hard to suddenly have your life changed by a circumstance you never thought would occur. I hated the thought I made them cry :(

Met up with Fats, Jehan, Ann - waited for Kizzy to log out and then went to Shang for dinner and coffee. I love my friends. Note: I've always wanted to leave, and the only reason I stayed after all were because of the people I worked with. Went home at around 10pm, I think. I already miss Kizzy and my team. *cries*

The next day, Labor day - prepped for the Pansol retreat with my barkada. Met Mayet at Petro C5. Villa Delicia weekend - videoke, poker, swimming, kwentos, no sleep at all. My barkada are my comfort friends - it doesn't matter how sad, depressed I am. They always manage to make me smile and make me feel loved. They are family after all.

Went home the next day and slept for 11 hours methinks. Or 13. Heck. Haha. Wooke up early had my coffee and read the newspaper. Had breakfast with my sister and Dominic. Went online for a few hours and then all of us attended the 330pm Children's Mass at San Roque :) Regeena, kept the 20 peso I bill I gave for the tithe. Hehe. *sigh* Went to McDonald's Tiendesitas for a children's party until 7:30pm. Watched the Pacquiao fight from a guy's MacBook Air in the next table. Teehee. My brother was aching for a new Adidas so we went to GB3. Shoes had to be pre-ordered. Stopped by Starbucks. Stayed for 30 minutes. Saw Jpeg with his sisters. Went home 11pm.

Slept at 4am. Woke up at 745am earlier.

ganun lang. haha. Oh oh! I want to go to Scholastic in Pasig for their Summer Sale. their 2nd for the year. Yipeee!!! More books!